Trying

(for more info/artworks, visit http://toinjoints.deviantart.com) This hit a chord this morning, shared from the Wild and wise Women group on Facebook he truth is ... I'm just like you And I'm trying Sometimes the trying is exhausting But it is an every day thing Yes I've heard "there is no try"... Thank you Yoda But in my humble opinion He was wrong Because there is trying Every day Every day I try To meet each situation with kindness To own what is mine - emotionally And to walk in integrity And honesty as well as faith and trust That there is something bigger That is guiding me And I am trying Because these are not all things that just happen on their own Yet. They depend on me to try I try to not let worry and stress Grief and pain overtake me and sometimes I am successful And when I'm not ... there is a next time For me to try again I am trying - to be who I am called here to be To be the mother my son will always be proud of And to mother in a way that makes me proud I try to not forget myself in all the care I give To not pass over me because I am quiet and "fine" And I try to remember what I need In my relationships, my friendships, my love, and my life While I am taking care of your needs Yes, while I am taking care of your needs in our relationship, our friendship, our love and our life Because your needs are my needs In an abstract sort of way that I have had to rise above Although they really matter to me too. Just like you, every day I try And there are days when trying feels like merely surviving And that's ok. Because there are other days Days when it doesn't feel like trying at all When I am in the flow and a part of the energy That works around me and through me Rather than the resistance I was trained to be There are those days ~ those ARE those days When I want to circle my arms around you and Whisper "It can be like this" Before we wake up in the morning and Try again. (c) 2013 Christa Thompson of W3